I miss the "exclusive" nature of that peace. It is an exclusive club not because it keeps people out, but because so few are willing to step inside. It is a sanctuary where the eyes do not devour, but simply see. To be a naturist is to reclaim the body from the marketplace of desire and shame. It is to say, "This is me. I am not an object to be consumed, nor a shameful thing to be hidden. I am a creature of the earth."
Do not tell yourself it is "silly" to miss a place where you were naked. That is like telling a diver it is silly to miss the ocean. Your body remembers a lack of cortisol (stress hormone) that only total social equality provides. Honor that.
