Esther's mental state degrades into suicidal ideation. She considers various methods of ending her life, eventually hiding in a dark crawl space beneath her house and taking a massive overdose of sleeping pills. She survives and wakes up in a hospital, blind and disoriented, before being transferred to a psychiatric ward. Chapters 16–20: Recovery and Institutionalization
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